Wow, I lost track of a few days there. In a nut shell here's what I ate, did and indulged in over those 3 days.

ATE INDULGED DID
Cottage cheese 2 brownies over 2 days Walked mall for 3 hrs
grape tomatoes raisin bran elliptical 10 min
delicious fajitas Whit's ice cream danced with Ben 1hr
oatmeal almond m&m's normal everyday stuff
organic granola bars 3/4 almond honey sandwich
string cheese

So as part of working this all in long run, I realized that I don't want it to seem "normal" as of yet. Which I figured would happen but I just had to see. I CAN say that I appreciated what I learned. The night I ate that brownie-holy cow my heart went crazy! You can know in theory that it's likely to happen but after four days of almost no processed sugar, it was like a messy jolt. My anxiety went through the roof and my brain felt like mud. It was just what I needed for an effective lesson. All as expected and it sucked. BUT I didn't feel that horrible craving, pull my hair out feeling so while I'm going to go back to counting calories, I need to SOMEHOW find a happy medium. "Balance" right? ugh...so here we go.